School

     This past week has pretty much sucked. On Monday I was told I was going 
to have a math quiz and chemistry quiz on Wednesday. Math I was okay 
with, but chemistry was going to suck. My teacher loves to show us 
examples on the board and then make his quizzes a million times harder 
and completely different than what he teaches. I understand teacher 
want to challenge kids, but if we aren't given basic questions, there's 
no learning.  I am a good student. My grades mean the world to me. I 
hate getting anything less than an A. It drives me nuts. I do all of my 
work and I study for hours.
     On Wednesday, my Chem quiz was just like I expected. It was super hard 
and it was on things I was never taught. I thought, "this is just 
fucking great." I was pissed. My math quiz ended up being super easy 
and I finished within fifteen minutes. I needed that after a stupid 
Chem quiz. 
     On Friday I went to my chem teacher for help on a lab. Thankfully, he 
helped me and didn't tell me a story that wasted 10 minutes of my life. 
I never understand where he's going with his stories. He told me that 
he graded my quiz and then he explained everything. I told him that I 
wasn't taught this so that's why I did so bad on this quiz. He looked 
at me confused. I explained myself again saying the problems he did in 
class, don't help anyone on quizzes because it's different material. 
Nothing bothers me more than teachers who teach one thing and make the 
tests or quizzes so much more difficult. I don't understand why we 
aren't given basic questions or challenging questions that at least 
deal with what we are taught. After I got over the fact that I got a 
6/10 on my quiz, my math class started and I got a 30/30 on that quiz. 
That completely made my mood go from pissed off and annoyed to happy. 
     On Thursday, I had a biology test. If I didn't do well on this test, I 
was just going to cry. Being a biology major, I better do well on my 
tests. I felt that I did well on it, but I won't know until Thursday, 
November 3. The wait is killing me inside. My anxiety is pumping 
through my veins as I sit here and write this. I just want to know my 
grade!
     After my biology test, my mom took me to the orthodontist. I was forced 
to go when my dentist said two weeks ago that my jaw shifts when I open 
and close my mouth. I thought it was just tmj and i was like eh 
whatever I'll be fine, but no, I was forced to go. Now, I need braces 
and some type of funny head gear to wear at night because my jaw is 
bone against bone when I bite down, and that is what causes my 
migraines. I have been to some many doctors because of my headaches and 
no one ever knew why. Now we know. I'm happy I went and was able to 
figure this shit out but I've been in pain since Thursday because of 
these stupid spacers in my mouth so they can put braces on November 
3rd. I can't wait to say I'm 19 and I have braces. People already think 
I'm just starting high school, but it'll be worth it. I'd rather have a 
little pain now than a lifetime of headaches. 

Team America vs F&F

            Because last week was so much fun, I decided to go back to King of Prussia for another flag football game. These football games are fun for lazy Sundays. It is something to take my mind off of everything else and just have a good time.

            At eleven o’clock this morning, Team America had another game to play against F&F, family and friends. F&F won the championship last year for the first time. They beat the best team in the League, The Bar. F&F is now the best, and they continued to show that they were today. F&F beat Team America 40-something to 0, Team America got their asses kicked.

            Team America switched quarterbacks throughout the game. Bob, Mark, Tony, and Alex all played quarterback today. In the first half of the game, we didn’t even get a first down. It was absolutely pathetic to watch. We should have played better. Bob is usually a good quarterback, but he never played before. He is actually one of the only people who has ever played football on the team but he was never a quarterback. Mark also played football, but he wasn’t a quarterback either, but he should have been. He is the best quarterback on the team. Tony was quarterback last week and didn’t do too bad. Alex was the quarterback for The Bar last year. He quit The Bar and wanted to play for Team America because we take it less serious and have fun. Today just wasn’t anyone’s day.

            On gender downs, I wasn’t thrown the ball too often. Instead of having the ball thrown to me, I handed it off to Sean, who ended up getting hurt. He was running with the ball and was trying to get through a crowd of people trying to get his flag and he ended up knocking heads with someone on the other team. Sean wasn’t allowed to play the rest of the game.

            Team America is now 4-5 for the year. We are in 7^th place as of last week, but because the website hasn’t updated yet, I don’t know where we are standing. Playoffs start the first week of November and hopefully Team America can pull through and win some games. Next week we play the Ravens. This team is really good. They lost today though which makes them 5-3 for the season. Their loss was like a kick in the stomach. They could have won on the last drive, but they weren’t able to make the play. It was devastating. Hopefully next week Team America can pull through and beat them making our standings higher and there’s lower. It will be a good game.

            I am so sore from these games I’ve played. I’ve never given credit to anyone who plays sports. This is hard as hell and I’m glad I don’t love sports that much. I don’t like being sore and I hope it goes away soon or I’ll bitch forever.

           

            For the rest of this week, I hopefully will be able to get more running in. I have a biology test that is just going to kill me. There is so much to know for this test and I want to do really well on it. I need to bring my grade up in that class and nothing is going to stop me from doing that. I am willing to put every other class behind me this week just so I can do amazing on this test. It is so important to me. The stress from everything makes me crazy and running should help me get my mind off of it. Thank God for Thanksgiving break! I can’t wait for it and I just want it here.

Team America

            I was going to run tonight, but I ended up getting a lot of running in that I wasn’t expecting. This morning I went to Scott and my brother’s flag football game. In their league, they need to play with a girl. A girl has to get the ball at least once in four downs. Today, there was no girl, which would mean that they would have to play a person down and would only get three chances to get a first down, so I stepped up and played along with my brother’s girlfriend.

            Every Sunday, the Philadelphia Flag Football League has games in King of Prussia. There are ten to twelve teams every fall and spring season. Team America is the team that Scott and my brother have played on for the past year and a half. My brother’s friend, Chris, is really into the league and makes shirts every season. He made a special one for September 11, the day the fall season started. It had the twin towers on the back and said “proud to be an America.” Now the shirts the boys and girls were say USA and have the names of the guys from the Mighty Ducks on the back. Usually each team plays once a week, but this week there were two games Team America had to play.

            The first game started at ten o’clock against the Saints. When I started playing, I didn’t know how good the Saints were, I just knew that they had played at the nine o’clock game and would be worn out. That was not how the game went. On third and gender in the second half, I was thrown the ball, but I had it knocked out of my hands by this dude who was a foot taller than me. I was really pissed. I had a chance to get a first down, but I just couldn’t. In the last two minutes of the game, Team America was up by a touchdown, until the Saints threw a long pass and scored, making the score tied, nineteen to nineteen. The Saints ended up getting running in the extra point, since there is no field goal, and they won twenty to nineteen.

            The second game was at eleven o’clock against the Stallions. They played at nine o’clock also, but not against the Saints. The Stallions were a good team and had two girls on their team. Team America ended up scoring first, which gave our team a lot of momentum to keep going and not giving up after a loss in the game before. We were all tired as hell but it didn’t stop us. We ended up winning 27-19.

            It was a lot of fun playing today and I was surprised by the endurance I had to run and play in both games. I don’t think I would have been able to even play for the first half of the first game if it wasn’t for the running program I started at the end of August. Playing today made me want to get back into the program. I really think I will start again in December, once school is out of the way.  

TMJ

I wasn’t able to run again today. I had to babysit again and then my mother called me and told me I had a dentist appointment. I love going to the dentist. I love the feeling of my teeth right after I get my teeth cleaned. I found out something interesting when I was there though. I opened my mouth, but not wide enough so I was told you open wider and when I did my jaw moved. My dentist made me close my mouth and open it and close it and open it again. Each time my jaw moved. I found out I have some form of TMJ and may need braces to fix it. I do not want to get railroad tracks on my teeth at 19, almost 20, years old. It’s not cute. Now I had to do to the orthodontist, who I hate. She is such a bitch. She will probably want to put me in braces, but I won’t let her. My jaw hurts and I’m just annoyed about it.

Because I didn’t run and I was, and still am, annoyed, I decided to so some jumping jacks, push ups, and sit ups. I absolutely hate doing push ups. I don’t want to look like some jacked dude. That is absolutely repulsive for a girl to look jacked. I don’t think just push ups will make me that way but just in case they do, I try not to do many. Sit ups are the best though. Every girl wants a flat stomach!

I wish I had fall break

I wasn’t able to run tonight sadly. I had to babysit all afternoon and now I have a ton of homework to do. I usually get my homework done way ahead of time, but it’s not easy when my Chemistry teacher puts things up so late. It’s super annoying and doesn’t help me when I have a lot of other stuff going on. I wish I could run tonight but I can’t. School is more important than running or doing any kind of activity.

I really wish Penn State had a fall break. I need one right now. Everything seems to be piling up during the same week. It seems like teachers get together and decide to put every paper and every test during the same week. I don’t understand it. This is why I need to run. Everything piling up at the same times causes so much stress on me and I can’t stand it. I just want to have a break. I need it.

I hopefully will be able to run tomorrow if I get more school stuff done tonight. I hope I do. I really need to study for my two tests Friday. I just have no motivation to do it and I have no idea what is going on in either class. Looks like a failure on both those tests. Whatever.

beautiful day

            It was absolutely gorgeous out today! It was an odd day for October weather, that I know of but it was great. I definitely don’t miss the warm weather and summer. I prefer a sunny day with a cold breeze. I don’t like being hot. There’s no way I could ever live in an area that didn’t have four seasons. I like the nice break between the frigid weather and the disgusting humidity and heat.

            I ran after work today with Scott. My knees didn’t hurt for once but my legs did because I forgot to stretch. Oops. Oh well, not a big deal to me. I’ll stretch later tonight before I go to sleep. Running today sucked in this weather. I miss the cold now that it has arrived. The cold weather is so much easier to run in and I feel like I can breathe so much better. I hate the humidity and heat. It makes me so sick.

            Just as a side note, it sucks that the Phillies lost and that the Eagles keep losing. Philly teams seem to be going downhill and it doesn’t feel too good to be a fan of either team right now. The Phillies hopefully can do well next year. For the Eagles to do well, they need to get rid of Andy Reid. He is absolutely horrible. I could coach better and I don’t know a lot about football. He is worthless. If he gets fired, we need a coach who can take the team where it needs to go.

Side Steps and Butt Blasters

Today I decided to not go running. I don’t feel like it at all. To make up for not running, I did what my brother told me to do. His workout for me involved using resistance bands. He told me to do alternating chest press, pushups, overhead press, bicep curls, squats, lunges, side steps and butt blaster.

            For all of these I did two sets of ten. It was all pretty easy, until I started the second set. The resisted pushups were the hardest and I probably won’t be doing them ever again. I am a girl and girls should not be doing pushups. I felt like a man doing it and that’s just wrong. Squats and lunges are just as painful as pushups. The squats with resistance are harder than without obviously. As I went down into the squatting position, I had to pull on the resistance band and that was super annoying. I don’t care about this stuff so I don’t know why I put myself through it. The side step and butt blaster were my favorite. Hopefully working on these glutes will tone it up so it’s not absolutely disgusting. I want a toned body, not muscular. That is why I like using the resistance bands. I won’t be building muscle like a dude. Thank God.

october 4th

Tonight I ran for twenty minutes again. It’s starting to become the same routine and I know I need to push myself forward. I need to start running for longer periods of time and taking longer walks in between. It’s going to be hard and I’m not going to want to do it but I have to. I don’t know when this will happen but it has to. I have absolutely no motivation to run anymore. I do not care for it. I just want to stop, but I know I shouldn’t. I feel so much better after I run. I have more energy to do things. I don’t feel like napping all the time. I like being active, but I just don’t have the time anymore. I don’t feel like putting in any effort.

            All I want is for school to be over for the semester and then I can put more effort into running and being more active. School has taken over my life and so has working. I don’t know what I’m doing with my life at this point. College is flying by and I need to step up my game. I just need more motivation. I hope I can find it soon.

            Tomorrow, I’m going to try to start to run more and start a new workout routine my brother made up for me. I hope this works. I better not have a ton of work to do for school cause that will ruin everything.

October 2

I have started to completely hate running. School has taken over my life and I have no time to run. I haven’t been running as much as I would like to, but I still try to fit it in. I think I’m going to start running while I’m at school or doing something else to make up for lack of running.

                Tonight I ran for three minutes and walked for a minute for a total of twenty minutes. It is getting much easier to run for three minutes. I’ve been trying to lessen the time I take to walk. When I slow down my walk, I end up having a harder time running, but it’d worth it. Each second counts. I prefer to run around six o’clock. I also love running in the cold weather. I am able to breathe so much better. I thought that I wouldn’t be able to with the cold weather because it would make my chest tight, but it is ideal. I’m not dying from running in the heat.

                I am not running in the 5K anymore at the end of October. Hopefully while I keep running in the winter, I will be able to run a 5K in May.  I will be able to focus on running more when school is over and spring is here.