Finals Week

Finals week is here. I can’t even being to try and study anymore. I’m so studied out. My first final is Monday at 10:40. It’s my Calculus two final. I need at least an 88 to get an A in the course and I’m striving for that A. It’s sad that this is my last math class. I like math and will miss it, but I’m not trying to take Calculus three. That will honestly hurt my brain. My second final is Tuesday. I have my Biology 230W final at 10:40. I’m striving to keep my B right now. I hate the fact that I’m even excited about a B at this point. I like having all A’s. I’m a perfectionist in what I like and it’s killing me that I’m not perfect at this class. I will settle with a B for now because a B is way better than a C. My third final is Thursday at 8:30. It’s my Chemistry final and I am so ready to be done with that class.

This semester as a whole went really fast. The days went by way too slow for me and classes dragged on. It’s crazy that I’m already done my third semester of college. Five more to go until graduation. Hopefully, my classes for the rest of my years at Penn State Abington till benefit me and won’t make me have to wait to graduate. I really should think about what I actually want to do with my life. I’m happy to be majoring in Biology, but I have no idea what I’m going to do with it. I guess only time will tell.

Thanksgiving Break

Thanksgiving break went way too fast! I feel like I wasn't even away from school. My week was good though. I got to see my friend who goes to Penn State-main campus for the first time since August when she left. I missed her! She has been my best friend since grade school. Even though we went to different high schools and now colleges, she still remains my best friend. I can talk to her about absolutely anything and not feel judged in anyway. She is such a genuine and sweet person. I also saw another friend who goes to CCP. He is super hyper and has a lot of positive energy surrounding him and when I am around him I pick up that energy and it is such an amazing feeling. Being positive is the only way to get through life. Negativity brings negative things to people's lives and no one seems to realize that. The world needs more people like my friend. He is an all around good guy and he tries to make everyone feel accepted in this harsh world we live in. I had to babysit a sick little boy named Quinn on Wednesday. My poor neighbor had a fever and a bad cough. He is such a cutie. I couldn't stand seeing him being sick. When his mom got home from work early, she went to pick up her other two kids from the bus stop. The little girl Mariah came home and they found out she had pink eye, and then Quinn got it! I really hope those kiddies feel better, but I also really hope I don't get sick from being around them. That'd be a nightmare.  Thursday was a good day with my family. I'm extremely glad it was just my mom, dad, two brothers, and my sister for dinner. If anyone else from our family was there, the day probably would have sucked. Black Friday shopping was not in my schedule on Thursday night or Friday morning. I'd rather pay full price on something than go to a store at midnight or any other time in the AM and risk getting it anyway. After hearing a lady used pepper spray on people, I think I'm okay with staying home and not going through all that mayhem.

School has started up again and I'm not looking forward to two weeks of learning stuff I don't care about anymore. I am over school this semester. For some reason, this semester has been the hardest yet. I have no idea why either. I think I just need winter break and I'll be fine and ready for the spring 2012 semester. I have to finish this one first and I need to finish strong. I have a lot more quizzes and homework due so I'll be good I hope. I got a 92 on my last biology test! Thank God! It brought my grade up only by two points but whatever.  Two points up is way better than two points down. I just have to stay positive that my grade can come up and I'll do well. I'll study harder than ever for my next test and I'll be ready to ace it!

I can’t wait for this semester to end. One more week and we’ll all be free from school, until January rolls around.

Short Short- The Plane

            They had been on the airplane for three hours already. Time was moving slow for the newlyweds. They had planned their dream wedding during the holiday season and couldn’t wait to spend their first night together as husband and wife in Italy. Allie sat with her hand intertwined in Michael’s and stared at the ring on her finger.

            “Mrs. Michael Taylor,” She whispered to herself.

            “I’m so happy with you,” Michael said.

            Allie smiled and ran her fingers through her hair.

            A baby started crying in the back on the plane. The mother stood up and started walking up and down the aisle with the baby. She passed Michael and Allie and smiled. From the look on her face, she was tired and worn out, but when she smiled, Allie knew she’d give everything up for her child.

            “I can’t wait to have kids with you Michael,” Allie said.

            “I think we can wait a little bit. I want to get settled as a married couple before we throw another person in the mix.”

            “Are you scared?”

            “You’ll be a great father. Don’t be scared.”

            “But babies are so fragile. I’ll break it.”

            “You won’t break ‘it.’ ‘It’ will be your son or daughter.”

            “I know. I just want to wait.”

            “We will handle whatever comes our way.”

            The plane started to shake and Allie squeezed Michael’s hand as hard as she could. She had never been on a plane before. This was her first time and she wasn’t prepared for anything to happen.

            “Relax, sweetheart. It’s just a little turbulence. I’ve been on planes plenty of times to know when something is really wrong or when it’s just a little turbulence. I’m sure the pilot has everything under control,” Michael said.

            “Just hold my hand and everything will be fine.” Allie said, worried about her flight.

            “Let’s just finish watching the movie. We’ll be in Italy soon.”

            Michael and Allie were watching Allie’s favorite movie, Titanic. She had always been obsessed with the love that Jack and Rose had after knowing each other for only a few hours. She wanted love like that and she found it in Michael.

            Finally relaxed, Allie had her eyes glued to the screen. She had forgotten about the turbulence and the crying baby until the plane started shaking again. She looked at Michael with heavy eyes. She was scared and he knew it. Michael put his arm around her and held her tight.

            “Don’t worry. It’ll stop like last time.”

            “I hope you’re right.”

            “Aren’t I always?” Michael said, sarcastically.

            Allie smiled at him. She knew Michael was always a sarcastic man and she loved that about him, but when she wanted him to be serious, he never was. She needed to be reassured that everything was going to work out perfectly.

            The plane started to decline faster and faster. Allie looked into Michael’s eyes. Her eyes screamed for help. Everyone else on the plane started to scream. Babies cried, adults cried. No one knew what was happening. No one could even think. The destruction on the plane caused chaos and overwhelmed everyone.

            “I’ll love you forever,” Allie said.

            “I’ll love you until the day I die,” Michael said.

Thanksgiving Break

All I can say is thank God for Thanksgiving break! I need this break more than anyone else I know. For some reason, this school year has just been so difficult. I’ve never had a difficult time being in class and doing my school work. I love learning and being in class, but not this semester. I am so happy this semester is over soon. My classes are fun and don’t bother me. I’m just not into doing the work.

I have so much work to do over break. It’s not even going to be like ill be on break. I wish I had a free day off, but I don’t. I tried to do my work on Saturday morning, but I got absolutely no where with it. I stared at it wishing it would finish by itself. I have to read, finish my story, and write a short-short for English class. I have to finish a chemistry lab. My chemistry lab is so difficult to do. Dan, a guy in my lab, who is a teacher’s helper or something like that, said the lab was even hard for him to do. That doesn’t make me feel too comfortable about having to do it by myself. I have to finish my biology lab. I have to do a lot of research for it. Thankfully, it won’t be too hard once all the research is done. I have to watch a movie for my religious studies class, read chapter 11 in the book, and write an essay on a movie of my choice that goes along with my religion class.

This is not a lot amount of work to do, but this is not what I want to do while I’m on break. I just want to do absolutely nothing for a week. I want to sit on my couch and catch up on episodes of The Big Bang Theory and Supernatural.

I hope this week I can start running again. I really miss running and working out and trying to stay in shape. I think my energy levels will go up and I will be able to hopefully get my school work done instead of waiting until the very last minute. I’ve never been the student to wait until the last minute, but I’m slacking this semester.

On a sadder not, Friday around three o’clock, I got an email about a kid that just graduated in May 2011, who died. It is absolutely horrible that he died. I didn’t personally know Kevin, but he was still a part of the Penn State community. It is a shame. I can’t imagine what his family is going through right now. Death always seems to strike when the holidays roll around. I will pray for him and his family. My thoughts and prayers go out to them.

I couldn’t imagine losing anyone that I’m close to. I thank the Lord every day for the blessings in my life.

much needed break

It seems like every time a break seems to get closer and closer more work is piled on students in school. I can’t even think about the amount of stuff I need to do before Thanksgiving break and during Thanksgiving break. All I want is a week off to do absolutely nothing. I don’t even want to think about school. Thankfully the year has gone pretty fast and it’s almost over. This semester was a bitch and still is.

I have a Chemistry test Monday and I’m mostly likely going to do horrible on it. There are always those questions that are on it that are never talked about. We aren’t told to look in the book for what we have to know. Whatever we do in class is what we have to know, but then there’s a question thrown at everyone and it just ruins my mood. I don’t like knowing before my grade is given to me that I got a question wrong. It absolutely pisses me off for the rest of the day and weekend depending on when the test is given. Hopefully this test goes well especially now that I can’t drop a class. I’m stuck with every class I have now and if I do bad, I’ll be so mad at myself.

I have to watch the movie Citizen Kane for my religious studies class. I was warned before class ended on Thursday that I’m going to hate the movie. I really do not have any motivation to watch it, but I have to. I am so glad this class is almost over. I’m ready to stop watching stupid movies every weekend for this class. Most of the movies haven’t been too bad outside of class, but inside the classroom, the movies we watch are horrendous. I don’t even know how half of the movies I’ve seen are made into movies. I don’t understand how people thought some of those movies would be a hit. They are just bad. Hopefully I can get through most of the movie and get ready for class Tuesday.

I have a Biology test on Thursday. Every Biology test is difficult in some way, but this one I feel like I know the least about which isn’t looking to good for me. I need to put so much time and effort into this class. From today until Thursday, my life will revolve around genetic code, transcription and translation of a gene, gene control, the endoplasmic reticulum, the golgi apparatus, and lysosomes. The tests are always fair and should be easy for anyone who knows their information like the back of their hand. It should be known at the snap of a finger for this class especially for those people who Biology majors, like myself. I have to have self control and sit down and study for hours.

This last week before break needs to go fast. Every student and teacher is probably itching to be done for the week. It’ll be such a peaceful week if I can get a lot done over the weekend before Monday, November 21^st is here.

Thursday, November 3rd

            Last week, I was able to schedule classes for next semester. Thursday night I was so tired by the time ten o’clock rolled around. I never stay up late during the school week. I like my sleep and after waking up early for school, I like to go to bed at a decent time. It was ten o’clock and I’m trying to stay awake. It was so difficult. I literally had to stay moving or I would have fallen asleep. Thankfully the time flew by and it was 11:45. I was so ready to schedule. I had every class I wanted ready to type the numbers in. When the clock struck 12 midnight, my computer froze and Elion had a problem. I received a message saying all bunch of shit, but in bold the website said Environmental Dump. I was freaking out! I wanted to schedule classes and get the times I wanted. There were only a few seats left in some of the classes I needed so I did my best to get on right away. It took me ten minutes to sign on again. This didn’t just happen to me, but I still got screwed when it came time for me to type in the numbers. I got three out of the five classes I wanted. I was so annoyed and now my schedule absolutely sucks. I had to set up my watch list and have it text me when someone drops the classes I want. No one has dropped them yet and I’m pissed. There has to be a better way to schedule classes. I cannot wait to be a senior and be the first to schedule. There are times when I wish I played a sport because athletes have first priority over everyone else. It’s a bunch of bullshit. I need my classes!

            Also on Thursday, I got my Biology grade back from my test. I got an 85. I was disappointed until I saw the average in the class. Not a single person in three sections got an A. Mostly everyone did horribly so an 85 was good enough for me at that point. After I was excited to see how I did on the test, I was given a pop quiz. I got a 40 on that. Not too excited about that one. I really hope I can do well on the next test and the final and hopefully we have more quizzes that I won’t do absolutely crappy on. My lab grades will hopefully help my grade come up a few points. I just want this semester over now!

            After I bombed my quiz and lab was over, I went to the orthodontist. I had my mouth open for two hours while they put my stupid braces on. They are such a pain in the ass. I never thought I would hate these so much. I’ve always wanted them and now that I have them, I wish I never got them. But I know they will help me, so I just have to get over it. I hope I’m not in them too long. I just hope it ends sooner than I think. The worst part about them is that I can’t eat what I want to eat the most. I am a candy freak. I love all kinds of candy and it is killing me to not eat it. Temptation is always in the back of my mind and it has only been three days, I don’t know how I’m going to survive if I can’t eat candy for a year! I will probably go into shock. I live off of candy.

School

     This past week has pretty much sucked. On Monday I was told I was going 
to have a math quiz and chemistry quiz on Wednesday. Math I was okay 
with, but chemistry was going to suck. My teacher loves to show us 
examples on the board and then make his quizzes a million times harder 
and completely different than what he teaches. I understand teacher 
want to challenge kids, but if we aren't given basic questions, there's 
no learning.  I am a good student. My grades mean the world to me. I 
hate getting anything less than an A. It drives me nuts. I do all of my 
work and I study for hours.
     On Wednesday, my Chem quiz was just like I expected. It was super hard 
and it was on things I was never taught. I thought, "this is just 
fucking great." I was pissed. My math quiz ended up being super easy 
and I finished within fifteen minutes. I needed that after a stupid 
Chem quiz. 
     On Friday I went to my chem teacher for help on a lab. Thankfully, he 
helped me and didn't tell me a story that wasted 10 minutes of my life. 
I never understand where he's going with his stories. He told me that 
he graded my quiz and then he explained everything. I told him that I 
wasn't taught this so that's why I did so bad on this quiz. He looked 
at me confused. I explained myself again saying the problems he did in 
class, don't help anyone on quizzes because it's different material. 
Nothing bothers me more than teachers who teach one thing and make the 
tests or quizzes so much more difficult. I don't understand why we 
aren't given basic questions or challenging questions that at least 
deal with what we are taught. After I got over the fact that I got a 
6/10 on my quiz, my math class started and I got a 30/30 on that quiz. 
That completely made my mood go from pissed off and annoyed to happy. 
     On Thursday, I had a biology test. If I didn't do well on this test, I 
was just going to cry. Being a biology major, I better do well on my 
tests. I felt that I did well on it, but I won't know until Thursday, 
November 3. The wait is killing me inside. My anxiety is pumping 
through my veins as I sit here and write this. I just want to know my 
grade!
     After my biology test, my mom took me to the orthodontist. I was forced 
to go when my dentist said two weeks ago that my jaw shifts when I open 
and close my mouth. I thought it was just tmj and i was like eh 
whatever I'll be fine, but no, I was forced to go. Now, I need braces 
and some type of funny head gear to wear at night because my jaw is 
bone against bone when I bite down, and that is what causes my 
migraines. I have been to some many doctors because of my headaches and 
no one ever knew why. Now we know. I'm happy I went and was able to 
figure this shit out but I've been in pain since Thursday because of 
these stupid spacers in my mouth so they can put braces on November 
3rd. I can't wait to say I'm 19 and I have braces. People already think 
I'm just starting high school, but it'll be worth it. I'd rather have a 
little pain now than a lifetime of headaches.